...what?

The only reason I'm writing this is because i have a very strong feeling that no one will read.

It's one of those things where if you don't get it off your chest, the world as i know it will implode.

So here it goes.
The other day (september 17, 2009 to be exact.), my mom announced to me that she and my father had decided that "they weren't going to be married anymore."



......what?
as if that wasnt a mack truck to the face, she also announced that we will be moving pretty soon because of it.
.......what?
this wasnt supposed to happen....we're a christian family who believes in moral values and the sacred-ness of marriage. how could this happen?
she explained it about an hour, and in that whole hour, i think our tears could have combined to overflow an ocean.
who knew that in less than 30 seconds, my whole life as i knew it could be turned upside down.
pretty soon, i will be living in another house.
pretty soon, i wont see my dad every day like i have been for the past 16 years.
pretty soon, i might have to share a room with my sister.
pretty soon, i wont see my favorite bedroom ever again.
pretty soon, it will become an every-other-weekend kind of a thing.

and all over the course of 30 seconds this set in.

my mom explained that we wont see any immediate changes. dad will still be home for the time being, he'll still come to band practices and games and stuff. she said that things will probably begin to change around the first of the year because she didnt want the holidays to be wierd. so, thank you holidays for allowing me to see my father a few more times than i normally will.

all this hasnt exactly or fully set in yet.
maybe its cuz this is the sort of thing that happens to other people. it could never happen to us, right?....i guess not. we're just like everyone else, i had no idea.
i've lived in this house for 8 years. i love it. i love my room, my closet, the kitchen, the location...everything. and that everything is going to be flushed down the toilet because of a signature on a dotted line.

its insane.
i dont know what else to say.